(John 7:18) He who speaks on his own does so to gain honor for himself, but he who works for the honor of the one who sent him is a man of truth; there is nothing false about him.
I, too, was stuck by the fact that Jesus said his teaching was not his own – it came from God. Thus he was speaking from a deep inner knowing, and, though he knew scripture, he did not use it to justify his knowing God or for speaking for God. Jesus was not teaching from a need to be calling attention to himself, but rather from a deep spiritual calling to speak from that of God within him. At this point he is speaking from his truest self – “nothing false about him.” It wasn’t all about him, or as we sometimes joke, “It isn’t all about you.”
I have loved reading and contemplating these scriptures with you, my friends on this blog. However, for me, while this study of scripture is illuminating and inspirational, I do not sense that scripture study places me in closer connection with God. Spending time in silence, deep listening, quieting myself so that “I” seem to disappear – that is when God feels most present to me. When I am moved to speak about God, I notice again that “I” recedes, and only the message remains. Messages from God seem to have a special energy, a vibration and a certain truth that rings clear.